Why does the bitter memories stick like glue in my mind ?
I just want to keep only sweet memories.
I just want to keep only positives.
Why these things ain't easy to keep?
I'm still at comfort zone and lock myself to the same routine
everyday and everyday,
I haven't feel ready yet to go out from it,
but
it looks like am taking too much time and at the same time,
feel like am wasting my precious time.
and,
Everything seems fake and unreal,
it bothers me when I have to smile, laugh and talk-active
when all of it just to make myself look good
while it actually just lie,
even to myself.
This path wrapped around in the flickering fog,
that you can barely see,
The path that is like a rainbow,
that you think you can touch but it get farther away
Are you waiting for me somewhere
-dearself ?
I look around but I can't find you
Should I go here or should I go there?
I feels so faraway
But as if I'm being pulled,
I found my path
After I waved my hands and let myself go,
only loneliness wraps around me.
Am waiting for the right time
and,
my strength to get back on the track asap
before,
am too late.
