GoodBye 2018, Welcome 2019.

Another year has passed. I realised every years I wouldn't stop saying 'how time flies so fast', I keep thinking about it but I guess nothing changed. Well, we don't notice small changes because human only noticed the big one instead xD

It's kinda funny tho because my last updated was on last February // berhabuk sudah//.  
So this entry will be my comeback after almost a year I would say I didn't update anything.

2018 - ;

Taught me a lot regardless of anything related to life. Of course, there'll be some ups and downs bcs that's what we called life. So many happens for a reason. I do believe in after every raining there'll be a rainbow. Just like how life always teach us.

Some of my resolutions this year haven't accomplished yet. Surely will bring it to next year and I hope I could accomplish asap!
Well, we can only make a plan, but God's plan is always the best.

If I write everything that happened this year, it gonna take probably a week or more xD so many sweets things happened too.
I would say that the biggest accomplished that I already made from this year resolutions was I enjoyed in everything I do. I enjoyed the moment. But somehow, I am scared bcs It's hard for me to say goodbye to people who I already feel closed. 'Setiap perkenalan pasti ada perpisahan' always in my mind but I just a normal human who has feelings.

BitterSweet

Why does the bitter memories stick like glue in my mind ?
I just want to keep only sweet memories.
I just want to keep only positives.
Why these things ain't easy to keep?

Time flies so fast,

I'm still at comfort zone and lock myself to the same routine
everyday and everyday,
I haven't feel ready yet to go out from it,
but
it looks like am taking too much time and at the same time,
feel like am wasting my precious time.

and,

Everything seems fake and unreal,
it bothers me when I have to smile, laugh and talk-active
when all of it just to make myself look good
while it actually just lie,
even to myself.

This path wrapped around in the flickering fog,
that you can barely see,
The path that is like a rainbow,
that you think you can touch but it get farther away
Are you waiting for me somewhere
-dearself ?
I look around but I can't find you

Should I go here or should I go there?
I feels so faraway
But as if I'm being pulled,
I found my path
After I waved my hands and let myself go,
only loneliness wraps around me.

My dear,

Am waiting for the right time
and,
my strength to get back on the track asap
before,
am too late.